dreaming with the foxes

i want you to be my boyfriend so badly i feel like whenever i think about you my heart is eating itself like chomp chomp chomp (i dont know how that works) and it hurts but its a little bit of a good hurt

i want to hug you and kiss you and cuddle you and watch scary movies with you even though im a wuss and hold hands with you in school and make everyone say “look how cute they are” and listen to music with you and hang out with you just not even doing anything just you know hanging out and be comfortable with you and text you all the time and make silly faces at you and take dumb pictures with you and make fun of stupid people with you and yweah wow this has gotten

real lame real fast but basically i just like you a lot like a lot a lot

so muchhhhhhhhh

(you’re making me sick, love)

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not going to go into details not even on here but basically my mom just told me “you have got to pull yourself together or i’m making you an appointment [to see a therapist] tomorrow”

i believe i’ve hit rock bottom folks

what do now

god i just had a thought

i look at myself in the mirror all the time and think “well damn i’m cute, who the hell wouldn’t wanna date me”

and the hah oh gosh lmfao the thought i just had is like wow it’s astonishing but what if no one wants to date me, not because i look like a beached whale, no, what if no one wants to date me because i’m actually AN AWFUL PERSON????? LOL GOD RADICAL CONCEPT I KNOw

but i mean JESUS lets fucking face it i’m hateful i’m rude i’m never nice to practically anyone i get annoyed too easily i hold grudges for way too long i’m manipulative i never put anyones needs above my own etc the list goes on

lol fuck its funny i mean

who WOULD want to date me?

i hate myself, whats stopping everyone else from hating me for those very same reasons?

i”mmmmmmb goinanannana ffffucking piuuuukeeee!!!!!!!!!

THERE’S A LOUD SQUEAKING WHINING NOISE OUTSIDE ON THE STREET AND I’M 100% SURE IT’S SOME RATCHET ASS KID BEING ANNOYING FOR NO GODDAMN REASON

WHY DON’T YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP BEFORE I CLOBBER YOU WITH THOR’S FUCKING HAMMER

GOD I HATE THIS NEIGHBORHOOD

fuck my fucking life i’m trying to figure out what to do this summer in terms of staying with my dad and staying with my mom like idk what i should do but i’ve been thinking of staying a week at one place and the next week at the other’s and so forth

but like i was looking at the calendar to see where the schedule would fall on the 14-21 of july because i might be going to the beach with natalie for that week and i saw that i would be with my dad on the week of my birthday and i just ugh goddamnit i mean i know i will probably go out to dinner with my parents for my birthday but i just wish i could be with them both on my birthday

like i just miss getting woken up on my birthday by my parents and having breakfast with them and and just idk i think what i miss most of all is going to see fireworks with them the night before and then once we go home not being able to sleep because i’m so excited 

but it’s just so different now and i hate it i haaaaaaaaaaate it

not to mention the fact that the week i’ll be at the beach with natalie is a week i’d be with my dad, so naturally when i get back i would go to his place, but then that would mean that my mom wouldn’t get to see me for two weeks

sigh